school holiday has started.but not for me,as STPM draws near.i will have to struggle very hard in order to get good results,which i will regret and never forgive myself if it's the other way round.
today is the last day schooling.we have gotong royong and went home at half past nine.i forgot to say thank you and goodbye to all my teachers which have tried their very best to teach us,hoping that we would get flying colours in our coming exams.especially mr.lai(my form teacher),mr chua,pn jong,pn noraida,pn zamrah,pn kuo and also encik randy(although he doesn't teach me,he worried about my muet results.what a cute and caring teacher).even though today is the last day all of us in school,many of my classmate absent.it's saddening..
i'm going to miss all my teachers and friends..and also my school life.what a precious moment in my life..
what a day..working and neglect everything including my revision.it's not my will anyway.i'm just trying to help my boss who is helpless,ask for my help even though he knows that i'm very busy with my 'considered last minute revision'.i wanted to reject,but it's just hard for the 'no' to come out from my mouth..
my first working day was after school last friday.i worked until 6.30pm.the second day,i started at 10.30am as that day was saturday.i met many workers from the shops around.there's one man,worker of a barber shop.he walked to my working place direction and i waited to smile at him.but i don have the chance to greet him as he walked to his car which was just before my working place.so today,he saw me and just looked away as if he din't see me.i was trying to smile at him.in my opinion,i think that he misunderstood that yesterday i purposely din't greet him.this incident makes me very sad.
luckily,there's a woman,a worker from a supermarket.she saw me and asked me about my studies.she really brightened up my day..forget to mention that she has a quite high position in that supermarket.comparing to that barber man,she's really friendly and caring.maybe i'll find some free time to chat with her.why?because i can see that eventhough she's rich,she's a bit lack of friend.she's married but doesn't have any children yet.i heard rumour saying that she can't have baby.if it's true,then it's really sad.
from the above incidents,do u think that i'm too sensitive?or do u think that i always go for the negative side?maybe it's true...but then don't u think that a sensitive person is more observant?not on people's appearance but on their feelings..the more u expect,the more is ur disappointment.so,always think on the negative side.i don't like the feeling of being disappointed...it's hard to be corrected.i mean that disappointed by others need them to realise their mistake and also realise that u r disappointed with them.the harder part is the last part.that's why...
this holiday,stressing holiday.
at first i thought it will go smoothly according to my plan...scheduled-revision.who knows it turns out with every morning(the whole morning) onlining,watching television in de afternoon and night.this is stressing me as my trial exam is coming soon.
besides,many happenings around me.i don't like someone praising me in front of me.this act is as if they want to win my heart and also,they want to prove that they know everything,for me.what a stupid person.
it's very annoying that when you fail to reach someone's expectation and you move the expectation to another person who is better than you.and the most raging is that you don't even know what you are doing.of course everyone can't be perfect,but we must strive harder to be perfect.at least we try.then there is no reason for our failure and regret.never try to explain how and why this and that can happen.do u ever realise that if you do that,you are trying to cover your guilt and mistake?you are not solving the problem.instead you leave your problem for others to handle.what a failure.not only run away but also cause problem to others.
of course,there is no reason to scold this kind of person.there should not be scolding in this world.why?
can scolding solve the problem?can scolding make everyone calm down?the answer is no.
so,never scold people when they make mistake.also don't scold them in your heart.as they don't know you are scolding them and continue to be themselves.as for you,will only get even angry.why want to suffer like this?try to confront this.how?depends to your heart.that's all.
This is my first time writing blog.
I see my sis is like first first very hardworking,everyday update her blog.But then she seems tire of it now.
Hope that i won't be like her.
However,i won't update my blog everyday.
This is because my daily routines are the same everyday.Since i'm still a student,i seldom expose to fresh new things or any interesting events.But my life isn't as dull as you think now.
Sometimes i will discover something special and hope to share with everyone.I'm sure that everyone will benefit from my discoveries and they might be important to our whole life.
So,welcome to visit my blog.
